These Are Past Poems That I've written

"Realize"
i'm trying to forget the drama
but i can't forget the pain
i'm trying to ease my suffering
but it's driving me insane
i'm learning how to love
in order for me to live
i'm learning not to hate
but never to forgive
i'm hurting real bad
and i'm hurting in every way
i'm hurting just as much
and i'm hurting more each day
i learned enough to leave
and i learned more than i should know
i learned there's no more chances
so that means i need to go
i suffered since the beginning
and i've suffered for way too long
i suffered just way too much
so now all my love is gone


"Broken"
i've been broken i've been shattered
but i still have the strength to stand
i've been ruined i've been hurt
by all the things that love demands
i've been crying i've been scarred
and it's too hard to ignore the pain
i've been lied to i've been burned
yet my love for you remains
i've been hurting i've been dead
since the day i walked away
i've been wishing i've been hoping
that you could have made me stay
i've been thinking i've been asking
why did we have to end?
i've been dreading i've been hating
that everything was pretend
i've been living i've been breathing
the best way that i can
i've been loving i've been changing
to be the person that i am


"Leaving"
i finally woke up from my sleep
when i walked out of my dream
and realized what i thought was reality
was not truly what it seemed
all of the false feelings that i had
brought upon me so much pain
all the lies that were uncovered
drove my life fully insane
how was i to notice all the wrongs
when my eyes were in a sleep
troubled by the consequence
of loving someone way too deep
waking up was not the best thing
when i was happier living in your lie
but the truth grew overwhelmingly
with each day that passes by
i finally decided to pinch myself
to wake up to what is true
but first i must throw out the lies
by painfully leaving you


"Angel"
Each star reflects an angel
who was sent to stay on earth
to guide and to love
by putting others first
they spend their eternity
searching to spread their love
they were destined to do this
as they flew from up above
i waited days and nights
to be swooped up off my feet
waiting for a moment
when my angel and i will meet
i'm sure the wait is worth it
i'll have someone who cares
an angel who's my soulmate
with the many things we share
everyone around me
are all fulfilled and complete
i dream to be like them
every night when i'm asleep
i am counting down the days
and i am keeping track of time
for my angel who's sent from heaven
to finally come be mine
as i look up into the sky
and i see the brightest star
i know deep down inside
that my angel is not too far...