Shut Down

"Shut Down"

my hope has been depleted
the will has been long gone
it's like my body has shut down
with everything withdrawn
it's as if my heart has stopped beating
or my lungs no longer breathe
with no blood or air supply
so my body's left to seethe
it's as if my brain no longer thinks
and the nerves no longer feel
or my body no longer moves
and my skin refuse to heal
my love has lost its warmth
when my life has lost its worth
it's like being abandoned here
to live alone on earth
my body and soul is connected
so it reflects the way i feel
a shattered love and broken heart
was just something i can't conceal
i've been let down once again
and i pray that it's the last
i lay here wide awake
waiting for pain to pass
my body has shut down
when something triggered in my heart
i must wait for what's to come
while my life with love departs

*Sigh*

"Waiting"

i have always told myself to stop
and that each attempt would be my very last
because i always build up hope
which turns into problems i can't surpass
i am always putting in too much
hoping that it's worth the wait
somehow i end up all alone
before realizing it's too late
i keep telling myself its ok
that eventually ill find the one
i should be a little more patient
and someone will surely come
but i've waited for so long
and waiting is all i ever do
i wait and wait again
but all my waiting's never came through
along with each attempt
is followed by a deeper void
as i sit here and wait some more
i feel more and more destroyed