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"Fragmented"

It's hard to believe that all beginnings
will eventually be followed by an end
it is inevitable to prevent it
even though it's not what our heart intends
sudden feelings and sudden actions
can occur at the most random times
altering us into any direction
may cause the blurring of boundary lines
unexpected things may happen
when different lines get blurred
feelings and emotions can develop
that's when unexpectedness occurs
we are all only human
and some things are out of our control
feelings and emotions can transition
into many fragments or a whole
i, for one, am fragmented
trying to fix things piece by piece
attempting to correct everything
until no more confusion can be release

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- Larry Nguy

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"I Lost a Friend"

my feelings for you developed
and it didn't just happen over night
i denied it for the longest time
but eventually they felt so right
i knew nothing could really happen
because you thought of me as a friend
i was afraid to display these feelings
because it can put us to an end
but somehow accidents happened
and you found out how i feel
so i acted on my emotions
with no secrets to conceal
it was a mistake that i made
and definitely something that i regret
i wish i could turn back time
and make you magically forget
i would rather preserve our friendship
than having to risk it all
but somehow things just escalated
from something that was so small
maybe i should have hid my feelings
so i could continue to pretend
but i no longer could hold back
and that's how i lost a friend

a new one =]

Restrained

Restrained from all happiness
I was unable to break free
Unable to challenge love
with the pain it gave to me
the harder that i fought
the deeper that i drowned
right when i think its over
I brace for another round
it was impossible to cure
and overpowering on its own
it isolated me to myself
and it kept me all alone
with no intentions to move on
and my hope's no longer there
my dreams are completely shattered
and broken beyond repair
Im rooted to where i'm at
another halt along the road
restrained from life itself
and consumed by the lifeless cold

boo

"Search"
we are constantly in search our whole lives
to find that perfect fit
someone and something stable
where we know that it is it
Some may succeed at it early
but i am having a hard time
where i force myself to believe
that things will be just fine
heading down the wrong path
where mistakes are bound to occur
i never took the time to observe
so my decisions are reassure
feelings will be crushed
when no truth are present in those words
and hope becomes more distant
when one believes everything they've heard
loss is the end of the journey
and pain is the result of it all
love can be your greatest cure
or your most tragic fatal fall

"Don't Give Up"
things went well from the beginning
and now there are some bumps along the road
i believe that we can overcome this
and not put our feelings up on hold
we can try and progress forward
and see what proper steps to take
our feelings can mature nicely
from the decisions that we make
i ask that you don't give up yet
on something that is true
don't let the problems overshadow
the feelings from me and you
nothing ever comes out perfectly
from what we would expect
but i know we can make things work
because of the way that we connect
i just ask that time is given
because we are both worth the wait
everything will come together
and flourish into something great

i've been destined to live a lonely life
with no chances of settling down
the many attempts that i have made
spreaded failure all around
everyone will find someone
eventually along the way
but i've accepted the fact
that my moment will be delayed

Shut Down

"Shut Down"

my hope has been depleted
the will has been long gone
it's like my body has shut down
with everything withdrawn
it's as if my heart has stopped beating
or my lungs no longer breathe
with no blood or air supply
so my body's left to seethe
it's as if my brain no longer thinks
and the nerves no longer feel
or my body no longer moves
and my skin refuse to heal
my love has lost its warmth
when my life has lost its worth
it's like being abandoned here
to live alone on earth
my body and soul is connected
so it reflects the way i feel
a shattered love and broken heart
was just something i can't conceal
i've been let down once again
and i pray that it's the last
i lay here wide awake
waiting for pain to pass
my body has shut down
when something triggered in my heart
i must wait for what's to come
while my life with love departs

*Sigh*

"Waiting"

i have always told myself to stop
and that each attempt would be my very last
because i always build up hope
which turns into problems i can't surpass
i am always putting in too much
hoping that it's worth the wait
somehow i end up all alone
before realizing it's too late
i keep telling myself its ok
that eventually ill find the one
i should be a little more patient
and someone will surely come
but i've waited for so long
and waiting is all i ever do
i wait and wait again
but all my waiting's never came through
along with each attempt
is followed by a deeper void
as i sit here and wait some more
i feel more and more destroyed

New One =]

Shattered

There is still an empty space
Where all my feelings used to be
Until I was broken beyond repair
With the shattered parts inside of me
Each piece has a reason
Of why they broke from what’s complete
To remind me of the mistakes
That I should never again repeat
I put out all I ever had
Only to receive nothing in return
I wish I could dispose of this baggage
To release me from my concerns
But I still hold onto all the pieces
Although they have no value of their own
I used them as a reminder
As to why I’m better off alone
Throughout all the pain and suffering
I was left with a worthless scatter
Because this is all I have to remind me
Of how my whole life became shattered

"Grown"
we never had to worry when we were little
of all the things that we could lose
anything from belongings and our loved ones
or the opportunities we didn't choose
Things were always fixable
and everything was drama-free
life was always better
because we were still too young to see
we were told anything can be possible
and never knew lives could break apart
we never understood unfairness
or the stopping of a beating heart
everything we knew when we were young
was limited by our age
as the years passed us by
our lives moved onto a different stage
stress, problems, and reality
are just a fraction of the things we go through
our parents can no longer shelter us
from what is harsh and also true
we were protected from the world
and there were certain things we didn't know
but each year of experience added
allowed us much more room to grow
sometimes it is better to stay a kid
and not be aware of what goes on
and be able to live in a flawless world
where nothing can go wrong
if i was aware of all the burden
and know all that i know
life would still be perfect
as long as i didn't grow

"Problems"
lately it seems like all i do is lie
and i lie about the way i feel
i can also pretend very well
that my happiness is for real
the happiness that i display
does not reflect my emotions from inside
im still not fully complete
even though i have laughed and cried
i've experienced it all
and yet i haven't gone through enough
its like i can't progress forward
but i also can't give up
people see the exterior side of me
and that's the side they receive
i never meant to confuse
that's why my smile is to deceive
i don't intend to fool the world
but that's the way i learned to cope
to suppress the stress and problems
so i wont waste my faith and hope
the sadness that comes around
will be kept only to myself
i dislike showing weakness
and share my burden with someone else
this is the way i've learned to live
and i've accepted who i am
i've been managing pretty well
doing more than i know i can
there's no solution to my problem
because i think i have more than one
this is something for only me
because only i know what can be done
every second that passed by
can also be recovery that was made
until more problem comes along
and my interior it invades